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| Pervertibles |
| 02.25.04 (10:53 pm) [edit] |
I got a giant shoe horn from the dollar store last week. I thought it would make an awesome spanker, its just curved so nicely. OH YUM! I tried it out tonight with Laine, FUN TIMES! OH the sound, the marks, the welts and the noises he made were fucking amazing. It can be used so many different ways too, the end part it self can be used in 2 or 3 ways and I dont just mean the intensity of it. And the handle *drool* it left this amazing welt on his ass. I felt so alive during it. Afterwards I did a bit of CBT and some C&B bondage, it was so nice, his penis wraped in orange twine, I got him aroused and as he got more and more aroused the string streched harder and tighter....mmm fun times.
On another note, I have been away for a bit...I have acctualy had a social life last week! It was great to get out and do things and meet with people. I got things sorted out in my head, and made some hard decissions, now to implement them. Woooo Feeling better!
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| SEE MY PIE |
| 02.18.04 (5:26 pm) [edit] |
well ok I dont have pics of it, but damit I made Apple Pie today, from scratch...its almost gone now. Damn that was tasty pie! I feel all domestic and the need to back or cook more now. Im all giddy to, its nifty....like side affects of drugs that I dont take.
I came home and asked if Laine wanted to see my pie...he was all excited...but he was still happy that it was a real pie. I made it with my mentor, we made 3 pies! and the whole time she had stew simmering *drool* it was so yummy. What a great day! And tonight I go out again! I have had one request to bring pie out tonight too LOL
WHEEEEEEE! kay going to get ready to go out!
*giggles*
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| My Apology |
| 02.17.04 (7:09 pm) [edit] |
I have been ignoreing people lately. Even people I have met online and friends I have made. I blog here and there, but dont say much anymore. To those I know in real life, I have made promises to you, and have not been great at keeping them. It has been rude of me, and un-fair. To those who are upset with me, I understand, I have no more excuses. Thats it... I will be comming out more now and getting back to my old fun, fucked up ways.
Look out world, Im going to be me again!
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| Stream |
| 02.17.04 (12:56 am) [edit] |
I want to write, I want to say so much, but then I get to the point of sitting down and writting I find myself totaly blank. Its like WTF, I had all these great ideas when I was playing with that chick online but then when I want to write it down I feel like I lost it all. Maybe its the vodka I had tonight, maybe its my own fucked up sex drive. Yea constant orgy in the back of my head but dont always have the drive to back it up. Maybe I need to fuck women more... hmm maybe need more women in my life. I keep thinking about times in ontario. Times with Tree, and Anistasia
Im so messed up. I want to go out but dont want to leave my house. I make too many excuses. I make friends then push them away. I dont want to be my parents. I want to have a drink now and then but each time I drink I find myself a bit afarid that if I want another I will keep wanting more, I dont want to go back to old habbits. I want to eat, I just dont. I feel want to get back to life, I want to live again.
I am re-inventing my image I want to be more confident, more happy, more me. I hide to much, and manythings I hide I will forever keep hidden. I cant let me out. Its like some craz'd animal I keep in a cage, I tease it and use it to tease others. I want to stop being seen as the cute girl people will fuck and love, and turn into the sexy, confident lady people want to fuck and love. I want to be the image in my head of what I look like, not the image others have of me.
I think too much.
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| And Dont You Forget It! |
| 02.15.04 (2:23 pm) [edit] |
 You Are an EXPERT in BedYou know precisely what you’re doing when the sheets are pulled down and the panties go right along with them. You’re also super confident, and rightly so. Because any man who may be fortunate enough to find himself between your legs is a happy man, indeed. You’re the type of woman men brag about in locker rooms: knowledgeable, adorable, and lickable. You’ve gotten to the point that you don’t even have to try so hard. It all just comes naturally: the mouth, the hips, everything underneath. One lovely little package. Are *You* Good In Bed?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
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| boobies |
| 02.14.04 (11:46 pm) [edit] |
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| mmmm-ya |
| 02.14.04 (9:08 pm) [edit] |
 For you, kissing is just an appetizer - and a brief one at that. It's not unusual for your hands to wander elsewhere when kissing, even on a first date. Truth be told, you much rather be kissed some where other than your lips! What Your Kissing Style Says About You:You're a highly sexual person and not ashamed of it. What's the big deal about sex, anyway? Of all your friends, you're the best in bed... no wonder their lovers are always eyeing you. You're biggest problem in relationships is having too many to choose from. You're in demand, babe! Your Personal Kissing Matches and Mismatches:Get together with another Carnal Kisser, and you'll be intwined all night. Not that you'll mind... If you're ready for a wild ride, then search out an Intense Kisser. (Not hard, they're usually obsessed with you anyway.) Kissing an Intense Kisser is... well, mind blowing for you. Word of advice, keep away from Juicy Kissers. They aren't prepared for the amount of lust in your little heart and will be scared away easily. And Romanic Kissers? Please! They want a ring before they'll get down with you! How Do *You* Kiss?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
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| Friday Session |
| 02.14.04 (5:36 pm) [edit] |
Here are the pics from friday. End result was about 200 feet of plastic wrap! It was Fun.
[b]Started with just a clear layer, made sure the body was covered[/b]
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[b]Then we went for a nice blue over all...the blue dosent show up well on the pics tho :( But he was in nice and tight...[/b]
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[b]He was feeling the need to sing that icky song 'Blue' so he had to be gaged[/b]
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[b]Then straped him to a pole with leather belts[/b]
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[b]After about 45 min it was time for him to lie down[/b]
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[b]To make sure he couldn't get his feet out I had to make sure they were nicely wrapped....hmmm if this was green it could be the grinch[/b]
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[b]One good shove with my foot got him to roll over[/b]
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[b]After an hour he was let out[/b]
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[b]all that work and all thats left is a pile of plastic[/b]
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| Who? What? How Many Cookies? |
| 02.13.04 (10:42 am) [edit] |
So it is Friday the 13th :) I like these days, the days where many are afraid of bad things happening...13 is my lucky number, I likes :)
On a sad not the Tattoo convention starts today, and I am missing it. Stupid health, couldnt wait untill later so I could get my convention VIP passes. Now I cant go at all, not even on a day to day thing *pout* Unless I could amazingly pull money out of my ass, but I seem to be lacking in ass money at the moment. Oh well, always next time.
On a good note, Im going to go wrap someone in plastic *yea* woooo my first time :) Pics to follow later :)
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| Smack It! |
| 02.13.04 (12:51 am) [edit] |
hehehehehehe have fun
http://www.meph.eu.org/" title="http://www.meph.eu.org/" target="_blank"http://www.meph.eu.org/
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| More |
| 02.12.04 (8:03 pm) [edit] |
Here's me all Domme-esq but I was told today that I look too cute to be a Domme LOL
I just think its a neat pic :)
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| random |
| 02.12.04 (1:56 pm) [edit] |
Funny sayings pop up all the time...take today when checking out blogs and posting comments on Tblut -
everton79 says: i like the naked woman behind your blog..haha
Minou says: hahaha behind every great blog is a naked woman
its so true! hehehehe
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| hehehehehe |
| 02.12.04 (12:06 am) [edit] |
In space no on can hear you scream but they can still laugh at you.
Laughter is the best medicine, unless you have a sucking chest wound then medicine is the best medicine.
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| Observations |
| 02.12.04 (12:05 am) [edit] |
While out tonight I was watching people dance I just had this urge to write down what I was thinking hehehehehehe
[i]They stand around dressed in their pretty clothes and fuck me boots but when it comes to dancing they hold their arms at their sides or behind their backs as if they are tied. Suddenly I realise im in a bar full of subs. Look their hands are preped to be tied. Im a Domme in a fetish shop and I have an unlimted amount of money.[/i]
The other thing was I finaly found the perfect lipstick. I found my bend me over a chair and fuck me red. I now have to start a cosmetic company. It would be called S&M Cosmetics. Colours would include Bend Me Over A Chair And Fuck Me Red, Beaten Ass Red, Fresh Ass Pink, and so on. I could have accessoires and give aways like "free with purchace a mini-flogger!!!" heeeee
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| Out... |
| 02.11.04 (7:37 pm) [edit] |
Acctualy going out tonight! woooo Heres me all pretty'd up :) My outfit looks HAWT! damn I look good
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| In 9 easy steps! |
| 02.11.04 (6:35 pm) [edit] |
*snicker* this was sent to me from a friend...it was funny...enjoy
http://www.instadomme.com" title="http://www.instadomme.com" target="_blank"http://www.instadomme.com
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| survey says |
| 02.11.04 (11:56 am) [edit] |
** basics **
Name:: Noelle
Nickname:: Kitten
Location:: at my computer
Gender:: female
Birthplace:: canada
Birthstone:: opal I think
Birthday:: Oct 23
Sign:: Libra/Scorpio cusp
Righty or Lefty:: righty
Screenname:: suscubus on Yahoo! or (@) Minou Minou (@) on MSN
** your looks **
Height:: 5ft 2 and a bit
Weight:: ya right
Shoe size:: 8
Hair Color:: black
Hair Length:: a bit above shoulder length
Eye Color:: green with a grey outline
Size:: curvey :P
Glasses:: not yet
Braces:: ya when I was like 13
Piercings:: not yet, cause im a big whimp
Tattoos:: 6
** fashion **
Where do you shop:: depends on my mood
What do you usually wear:: jeans, fuzzy pants, fet type clothes
What kind of shoes do you wear:: depends on the clothes, but ussualy runners
Do you wear a watch:: yep
Color you never wear:: bright bright orange
Color you wear at least once a week:: blue
Something you wear everyday:: a ring on my right middle finger, it never comes off
Do you wear make up everyday:: nope
Make up essential:: lipstick
Most cherished piece of clothing:: fuzzy pants
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing:: dont know
Do you wear belts:: sumtimes
Do you wear hats:: not really
How many pairs of shoes do you have:: 6 I think, maybe 7
** music **
Favorite kind of music:: Loud and Angry
Least Favorite:: country
How many CD's do you have:: no idea
Last CD you bought:: I dont know, bought them all for Laine for pressy day
Whats in your CD player right now:: Linkin Park
Do you download music:: could be
** Favorites **
Color:: blue and red
Number:: 13
Season:: Fall or spring
Ice cream:: bubblegum, mint choco chip
Website:: lots...
Quote:: "I Would Rip Out Your Tounge If I Didnt Need It To Lick My Boots"
Store:: hmmmm
Band:: see above
Singer:: see above
Rapper:: dont have
Group:: too many
Song:: dont have at the moment
Movie:: RHPS
Actor:: dont have
Actress:: dont have
Kind of movies:: comedies horror, musicals
Place to be:: ummm
Time of day:: mid afternoon
Clothing Brand:: ummm
Animal:: kittie kats
Food:: potatos
Holiday:: dont have
Shape:: long thin red line ;)
Restaraunt:: ?
Fast food place:: ?
Boy's name:: Darius
Girl's name:: Jacqueline
Word:: fuck
Month:: October
Candy:: mmmm candy
** love and relationships **
Sexual Preference:: Pansexual
Boyfriend or Girlfriend:: husband, kinda gf in ontario (?)
Crush:: all the time
Do you believe in love at first sight:: lust yes
What do you look for in a guy/girl:: personality and the rest follows
Best physical feature:: eyes
Best hair color:: black
Best eye color:: Green, unless its black hair and blue eyes on a pretty boi or girl
** randoms **
Do you paint your nails:: sometimes
What color is your tooth brush:: blue
What's on your desktop:: stuff
Do you like roller coasters:: only been on one and it was horrid, it was a badly put together ride :(
Do you do drugs:: not anymore
Are you a virgin:: nope
Do you have any pets:: 4 cats, 2 bunnies and a husband
What time do you go to sleep:: whenever
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| Good Times |
| 02.09.04 (11:57 pm) [edit] |
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I miss my T. We had such great times together, we would go for chicken fingers and fries then cheesecake then go dancing, and this would happen at least 2times a month or so. I hate not being around her, or at least knowing that we could just go and hang out together in the park or do girly stuff. T, honey if you read this, im talking with you online right now :) and I miss you so much, I miss listing to you go on about stuff and change the topic every 2 sentences and I miss being all girly with you. I love you! Cant wait to see you again!!! *HUGS* your N :D
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| Cams |
| 02.09.04 (11:12 pm) [edit] |
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Was talking to a friend online tonight, she was bitching about how she hates it when people cam with her then just go offline. WTF?! This is why I dont cam, well ok, other than being married and not really trusting people much. But come on! that is so rude! if you want to cam fuck with someone then go to a site that has ppl who want to cam and do it there. *shakes head* people suck, and not in the good way....
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| it works |
| 02.09.04 (3:29 pm) [edit] |
I am a Scorpio.
(Also known as "Scorpion")
My Horroscope starts like this:
" Scorpios are highly dangerous, even at a distance. They cheat and lie, live for intrigue, and take pleasure in destroying. " (Read more | Find yours)
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| hmmmm |
| 02.08.04 (10:06 pm) [edit] |
Well I like to spank more than get spanked tho....
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| Friday |
| 02.08.04 (8:15 am) [edit] |
Did another session on friday. Its kind-of a on going thing now. Just have to set it up with my slave now :? N E Way heres what we did...some neat pics :) Going to try plastic wrap next :D Im excited!!!
Started with legs and feet
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Then Arms
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Made sure he was all done up :)
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Then left him for an hour. It was great :)
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| Lips |
| 02.08.04 (7:17 am) [edit] |
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I decided to get my lip periced. I've been thinking about it for a while now, but finaly decided to do it. Now I just have to get out and do it. That requires getting the money, money that could be used for bills, and working on my tattoo's. Then leaving the house, and getting to a shop, and getting it done. hmmmm effort. Going to get my bottom lip done in the middle. Should be intresting. It'll prolly be a spur of the moment thing. Like "Hey I have the money now lets go do it" Well I just woke up so back to thinking about sex again :D
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| wants |
| 02.08.04 (7:06 am) [edit] |
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I was watching He-Man yesterday morn....yes I still like my Sat AM cartoons LOL N E Waysssss I saw this cute owl creature and this neat cat creature, I want. I totaly want something like that. Later on I was meeting Laine after his work and I was looking at books and there was this one witha penguin on it. I think if I had a penguin I would dress it up in a Tux with tails. Just to be redundant :)
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| Says Who? |
| 02.06.04 (7:18 am) [edit] |
As some may have seen this one fella on Tblog is posting some anti gay messages. This is horrible. I dont agree with using the bible as a hate tool. I dont practice orginized religion for this reason. I dont want someone to tell me how to worship. I have my own ideas and my own thoughts on things.
This is part of his blog that has the hateful messages
[i]Dear Tblog friends, just a quick note to say I do respect any views you have on this subject, but I do not wish there to be given any comments on my site about this posting. As you can see, there is a comment made and a counter comment made. This should suffice for all discussion. The Bible is not open for personal interpretation and has one set meaning, so do not try to explain away prophecy in order to continue your rebellion against the ways of God. Submit to God and live; reject Him and embrace sin and eventually encounter His eternal wrath. Special thanks to dragonbait22 for placing a comment. I did delete it and added this addendum in order to give fair warning to my actions. I have had several complaints about improper material linked to my site and so I also give fair warning that some of my links will be dropped in order to not offend the moral. I am not concerned about the immoral, because they are immoral and thus are unoffendable. By the way, the Bible calls all wickedness; "immorality," so this is not an assault on just the gay person. The Bible clearly teaches that murderers, liers, drunkards, sexual immoral, sorcerers and so forth all fit in the realm of immorality. In Gods judgement, a homosexual is no better than a murderer and so a drunk or one who practices lies. Sin is sin. The sooner you understand this, the sooner you can place yourself within His forgiveness and salvation. Respectfully, William[/i]
IMO the bible is open to interpretation. To say that there is no room for interpritation is so closed minded. If we all read the bible and came up with the same ideas about then then we would all be the same. Same thoughts, same ideals. There is a reason that there are so many fractions of christianity is because people have different views and ideas of what the bible was saying. I think this guy is a bigot. He is entitled to his opinion and so am I. To say that "[i]In Gods judgement, a homosexual is no better than a murderer and so a drunk or one who practices lies[/i]" is horrid. Who is he to say what God thinks? The message is about [b]LOVE[/b] and acceptance. Do unto others, not hate others and use the bible to promote your hate. Dont hurt others, dont hate. If two people want to fuck, and they are concenting and they want it, then let them fuck. I dont care what gender they are. I can take scripture and quote it and say that this shows that I am right and you are wrong, but then someone can turn around and say that that same section means something else. This guy does it in his own blog showing that it [b][u]is[/u][/b] open to interpritation. "[i]Here's a portion of the Bible for all those who keep claiming (wrongly) that it supports gay activity. Just for the record, there are dozens of anti-gay verses in the Bible.[/i]"
The bible has not been updated in so very long. Witch ment theives and murders back when it was written not pagan. Times change and with that change comes change in vocabulary. Humans wrote the bible, humans make mistakes, deal with it.
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| fat and why I like my FMD |
| 02.05.04 (12:21 pm) [edit] |
Saw the Neuro Dr today. what a fuck-ass. He says that he thinks its some pinched nerve in my leg, still. Then hes like lose some weight cause this is a problem with people who are over weight. He kept talking..."its a long process I know, cause its not like you just suddenly gained it all" :shock: excuse me? thats fucking rude! Now I know im not a thin little thing, never claimed to be BUT I am NOT over weight. It is not a cop-out, I have big bones, and im muscular. I know that I need to lose weight but its not the cause of my problems right now. I know people who are bigger than me and dont have this problem, but the ones who are thinner than me do, so Na na na boo boo Dr. Jerk! *grr* he also said that getting and MRI is a waste of time :x also saw my FMD (family medical doctor) who was like WTF its not a nerve thing. Im still getting the MRI, still trying to find out whats wrong, but at least hes not just looking at me and saying "oh well she looks on the big side so it must be her fat crushing her nerves"
ya im ticked off, i have never been a small person. Im short, but i was always big. bones and muscles. I played a lot of sports, and was active. *mergh* I stop, not worth it. I give up with the fat debate. Fuck it.
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| For Sure |
| 02.05.04 (5:39 am) [edit] |
 You Will Get Licked All Night For Valentine's Day!No one turns you on as much as your man. He knows exactly what you would enjoy most for Valentine's Day. It's really a cheap present (Free - unless you add in a bottle of wine!) and you'll being glowing for hours! He's going to give you the licking of your life. Where do you want it? On the bed, sofa, or shall it be the table with some pillows under your bod? Be exotic. Valentine's day is the day for lovers. Celebrate your love. It is a pleasure to bathe in each other's arms. Neither of you need any merchandise to prove your commitment. What Are You Getting For Valentine's Day?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
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| New Song |
| 02.05.04 (5:27 am) [edit] |
New song, just really like it right now, its I Miss You by Blink 182, enjoy
[u][b]I Miss You[/b][/u]
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want
where you can always find me
we'll have Halloween on Christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
this sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting every time
and as I stared I counted
webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)
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| sure, why not |
| 02.05.04 (5:13 am) [edit] |
You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.
"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."
Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.
As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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| 02.05.04 (5:02 am) [edit] |
why are the lonelyest hours those of the mid hours? I find that the times of 2-5 are the worst. In the AM it bars close in some places, or 3 in others, people are asleep, or at work, between 5 and 6 people are getting up to go to work. By 6 am people are up and about. By 2pm we hit the lull again. I've been noticing in my fucked up sleeping pattern lately that those are my worst hours to get past. I think back on the times when I wasnt working before and I felt the same thing at those times when I was awake and no one else was. Sometimes Laine would be alseep and I would be out with friends who were up and lived close by but I would still be home about 3 or 4 am, and Laine would be alseep. I would be up reading, or writting. In the afternoons tho T would come by and we would work out or lie around the house, or bake and be girly. I miss those times. I miss being close to things so that if the mood struck I could go dancing at 12 again. I always knew that if I went to the reg bar I would see people I knew, hear music I liked and could dance untill I was so tired I wanted to fall where I stood. I dont get that out here. I dont live 15min walk from downtown anymore. I dont live a few blocks from friends. No one is around when Im up and ready to do things. I think in addition to these hours being the lonelyest they are also the most depressing.
meh....I'll put on some angry music and dance with the bunnies, the house sleeps, I wake, I think to much sometimes
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| 02.05.04 (4:51 am) [edit] |
This is from Drama's blog - she took it from someone else...of course :)
What is your favorite word?
Fuck
What is your least favorite word?
any racial slur
What turns you on?
Intelligence
What turns you off?
closeminded people
What sound do you love?
laughter
What sound do you hate?
crying
What is your favorite curse word?
fuck
What profession, other than yours would you like to attempt?
actor
What profession would you not like to participate in?
animal slaughter
If heaven exsists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
"time to go back, you havent learned everything"
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| 02.05.04 (4:32 am) [edit] |
I finaly slept all night. I went to sleep about 5 pm yesterday, and then got up at 12, but made myself stay in bed. Now it is 5am and I have woken up every hour or so since midnight but I think I may just be getting my days sorted out finaly *yea*
I found out yesterday that making a skirt by hand is really hard work! Damnit! I need a sewing machine or a handy stich thing...that would work really well. Oh well, not giving up completly :D
Yesterday I found that Super Nibs go well with Nutella. I had a small bowl of the stuff that I was using to put on crackers...com'on I wasnt eating the stuff straight, tho it is really yummmmm...but I decided to try dipping in a Super Nib....oh ya, that was neat, it was really good....think I may have to do that again soon *laughs* Im not experimental when it comes to food, but when its candy and sex I'll do anything...hmm maybe change that to *try*, as there are somepeople I wont do ;) AKA pretty goth barbie bois
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| 02.04.04 (4:36 am) [edit] |
I think im going to take up sewing again. If I had a sewing machine I could do so much more but till then its going to be simple tops and skirts, I have to do this by hand. I have this great idea for this bondage skirt, I think im going to work on it today...just need the house to get up so I can look for fabric and work without waking everybody
:evil:
as my friend said when a guy asked if she was evil...she said "Im not evil, Im Wicked" and I totaly agree, but I go for more Naughty than Wicked :twisted:
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| 4am |
| 02.04.04 (3:13 am) [edit] |
Well I finaly made it to sleep yesterday at 2 in the afternoon. Got up at midnight...this is totaly the time for a house of people who are up at all hours. I need someone to play with! someone to talk to, that phone stuff is looking better and better every night. I could do phone domination or something at night, it might work, make a bit of money, have some fun, and something else to put up on this blog. I feel the need to poke someone, and in a non sexual way...ah hell i'd do it in a sexual way too.
I want a monkey, if you have a monkey you can take over the world. I wonder what happens if you have a penguin? I would think that I was really funny and dress it up in a tux with tails. Fuck it I am funny!
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| Mad Cow |
| 02.04.04 (2:57 am) [edit] |
http://www.totallytom.com/MadCow.html
cause its funny, kinda
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| 02.03.04 (9:33 am) [edit] |
I have yet to go to bed. I am still up...I have been up since yesterday at 5pm...yes I slept most of the day but was up till 6.30 am that morning then blah blah blah zzzz
This is how tired I am right now. I was trying to pull up my bra strap cause I thought it sliped down again, come on gals you know what I mean, and some of you CD's too, but then when trying to get it, I just end up scratching my shoulder and thinking to myself wtf where is the strap...oh wait, im not wearing a bra! *fuck* ya I think some sleep is a good idea at this point, maybe, I dont know, but off the computer for me, maybe go read yet another book.....that would make 4 in as many days now if I finish another one today....mergh, maybe watch some Zim, laugh, feel better...cant sleep clowns will eat me
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| 02.03.04 (5:24 am) [edit] |
I was just thinking, again with the "5am and Im still awake why cant I sleep thoughts" think of the people you know who read your blog. What if you wrote something about your friends sig. other, and how you dont like them? or how you bf/gf is bad in bed, or they have back hair. These are things that you cant post cause how do you deal with the aftermath? It would be like if I told my parents about this blog. I dont want to have to explain what I do. Maybe some of you out there in blog land have a private blog that you rant and rave about people in your life who you think are making stupid decissions or are with stupid people.
Another thing I was thinking about was that sometimes when talking on messengers it is so hard to get certain points accross. I seem to always sound like im back tracking and I just dont get my point accross the way I want. If I could just TALK to the other person then so many misunderstandings would be avoided. Ok. Im done, for now at least.
Oh - CD 2 done :D its freaky how my computer just shoots out the disk when done, hmm remind me of past lovers :twisted:
yello highlighter does not work well to label silver disk, keept that in mind....
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| 02.02.04 (4:22 pm) [edit] |
Watching too many movies this weekend here are two quotes that I remeber....cause I acctualy wrote them down.
1st from Personal Service - no its not a porn, its a movie based on Cynthia Payne, she was a Mistress in england in the late 70's, 80's, it was a great movie!
One old fella says to her "The future lies in kinky people" :D
2nd - Dumb and Dumber-er. Yes I acctualy watched it. It wasnt bad... "Chicks are for fags" *laughs* maybe it was the fact that it was 2am, but I thought that was just too funny....and it was said a few times in the movie.
Now, all you kinky ppl, come and see me ;)
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| More Pretty Pics :) |
| 02.01.04 (3:42 pm) [edit] |
As some know I have a slave....He got me this wonderful ridding crop...it has a horse head, It is beautiful! It leave quite the mark :twisted:
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Here are some pics of the rope bondage I put him in...by the end of the session the front looked kind of messy, but you get the idea. This was something new for me to try, and I think the back is wonderful, If I work on it more I may get it to look more like wings.
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