Laine suggested today to change my blog name to Girl In A Sex Shop...Well makes sense - cause really thats all I am now.  Its kinda crapy to have no life, and always be at work, but I do love my job.  I love to make people smile when I hand them some kind of toy and they just light up and turn to their partner and say  "OOOOO Lets get this one!"  I feel like the sex toy fairy sometimes.  Come see Minou, She's got what you want!  Oh the joy it brings me *ha!* At this point I am now manager of two stores.  Then I will either be manager at my store, or take over the big store.  Now I love my little shop, its so nice, and makes me happy.  I have a great staff and my regulars are amazing people.  On the other hand I can make more money at the bigger store.  Trying to see if I can do both, cause if I move to the big store neither of my girls want to be manager, and really I dont blame them with all this crap going on lately.

Today though I got a great compliment.  I was told by a customer that she was very nervous about going in, but her bf said he was in there before and that the people there made him feel really comfortable, and that I was very helpful, informative, and friendly.  She took my card and said she would be back again.  They spent over $100 as well.  Feels to good to make someone happy like that.  ya its retail but how many people can really say that they are truly working in the field that they went to school for?  Not many that I know of.  Well not at my age at least *grin*

Laine's been branded.  I LOVE the way it looks, and cant wait for it to heal cause well I have my reasons, all of them grossly erotic and sexual *grin*

LOOK! Do It!

Thank you.

I was on the b.com forums **I love reading what people write but am hardly ever moved to post there** And a forum was started about how you knew they were the one...Its nice to think about it from time to time.

Here's what I put

"When I saw him dancing. Just him, empty dance floor. I Just walked by. First time I had ever seen him. Then later in the coffee shop just listing to him talk. Even later - and by now the next day - we were watching Monty Python's Life Of Brian, and he fell asleep on me. Felt like the most natual thing in the world. Two weeks later I told him I loved him, 2 months later I asked him to marry me, 8 months later we were married. 6 years later I can still look into his eyes and see us when we are 80 and I love him even then."

I like that it was Life Of Brian - Makes me giggle just a bit to think about it.  Even our first kiss "I like you N" "I like you too B"

*sigh* No matter who else is in my life, no matter who comes and goes, who stays, what I do, Laine is my mate.  My partner.

Love you Sock Mate ;)

does anyone read this anymore? no really...do you?  I dont say much, or what I do say tends to be in private posts.  But I still wonder. 

Work life crazy.  At least it has settled down somewhat.  Better hours, better situation.  Things on the mend.  I've gotten to the point that I have stoped applogizing for not talking to anyone most of the time.  Its not that I dont want to see them, talk to them, or contact them, its that I can not make the promise to be there.  I cant keep it up right now.  End of that is in sight but I feel like a liar trying to make plans.  It hurts, it sucks.  I have so much on my mind right now, work, life, money, friends, relationships, men, women, just people in general.  Wanting to know where I stand but not wanting to ask to much, but what is too much?  *ugh*

Dealing.

Lemme know if some one reads this anymore.  Do you care really what I say? do you want to know about me?  Do you even miss me?

Been fighting for what I want, am finaly getting.  Learning to take things slow and working on finding out what life is like.  I think about some people alot and things we do or did.  Still processing.  I miss puppy.  Wonder truly how things are, or how things will be. 

Meh Work - Meh Life - Meh not being able to do all that I want but knowing that its ok to be patient and let things go sometimes.